Okay, okay, I know it's been awhile since I last posted, but this last week has been full of crazy surprises and hectic days. Which I'm sure all of you can relate to in some form or fashion. Have you ever been STUCK in the middle of a decision that, regardless of your decision, someone is gonna get hurt? I'm not talking about the decisions you had to make as a child of which friends you were gonna sit next to on the bus or at lunch, but the decisions that are literally life changing. I haven't until last week.
My biological father contacted me last week. Yup - BIG surprise! I have always wanted to get to know him and was never given that chance by him before. I consider myself a forgiving person and believe that people can change. So, naturally, I want to take him up on his offer when he says he wants to try to start over with me. I have twin half brothers as well who are 10. Luke and I have prayed about this, discussed it with other family members and prayed some more. I am not concerned about the past of who said what and why. I just want to know him.
...However (there's always a "but" huh?) as you could probably guess, my family who has raised me, been there for me and shaped who I am is not to excited about the idea. Mostly my dad. Which I understand why, but it's almost impossible to try to explain to him how much I love him and will ALWAYS love him and consider him my DAD. He's refused to talk to me about the situation and left it with an email that states he supports Luke and I but does not want to hear about the relationship or anything that has to do with my biological father and I - nor ever be in the same room as him. I can understand why and respect this, but it does present problems. All my life growing up, if people even knew about my biological father. I didn't really have much contact with him before age 10 and none afterwards (until now.)
So, the big question being - what do I do now?! Do I cancel this upcoming meeting on Sunday for the sake of my family or do I go along with it? Opinions and advice would be helpful.
Again, I apologize for slacking on the blogging - but I've been pre-occupied with life. (as you can probably tell)