So let us pretend that all the details have been figured out.Let us pretend that while I sit in this McDonald's, attempting to write my paper, that I'm not failing horribly at the task.
Let's pretend for 5 minutes that my life is exactly what it was a week ago:
- Celebratory (close to the end of this class)
- Simple
- Secure (for the most part)
I was so excited a week ago to think about all the good things that were going for us. I had this sense of "We got this!" It was great!
Shame on me for believing such a feeling could last.
Friday, Luke received a call from the PA program down at University of Findlay in Ohio.
....That is where I am today; Findlay, Ohio. CRAP!
I'm frustrated, scared, nervous, exhausted and emotionally; a wreck!
We now find ourselves attempting the impossible. Or at the very least; the most difficult of tasks.
Going from two incomes (Luke's far more significant than mine) and one in grad school to partial of an income (my minimal part time job) and TWO in grad school.
"Are you guys crazy!" - you may ask? Maybe.
"Are you high!?" - you say? No - but I wish I was to help keep my anxiety at bay.
So that's it. That's the big news I've been holding out on.
I'm sitting down at a McDonalds in this town trying to focus on this paper. Unfortunately, all I can focus on is how this is going to work. I've been working all morning with Financial Aid and everybody is telling us to just "Do It" (You would think this was a hell of a Nike ad - but it's not, unfortunately, and we are not collecting any royalties from this.) But I guess we're doing this, we're attempting to make this work.
Now that I have that all out and the local MickeyD's has slowed down from a loud, annoying "buzz" to a mild "humming" of people; hopefully this second round of attempting this paper will be successful.
Thanks for reading my rants and rambles. You are my outlet.
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