The last few weeks, my joint pain has been getting worse. What, I thought was just my muscles and joints adjusting to my training for the 5K has turned into something more. Glucosemine vitamins have not been helping the situation. Last night I was in so much pain I was up all night. Sleep has been something I have not been getting enough of lately...
I am very frustrated and have been praying about the issue of "pain" a lot lately. Not only have I been struggling with joint pain, but I also deal with Endometriosis on a regular basis. Just when those symptoms seem to dissipate, I'm hit with severe joint pain. This type of pain makes it very hard to even walk without being in pain.
Let's take the 4th of July...We parked a couple miles away from the beach and had to walk. I am an active and fit person. I should not be complaining of pain in my hips just to WALK a mile or so. I don't mean to complain, but it gets so frustrating at times. If it's not the hips, it's the female issue...and vice versa.
I find myself relying on 1 Corinthians 12:9;
"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect weakness.' Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
After some research, I have found that Rheumatoid Arthritis runs in my family, hip replacements and joint problems. I feel that I am too young to be dealing with RH right now. I can't even ride horses anymore without being in some kind of pain. I keep praying that I will be reminded daily that God's grace is sufficient for me. That Christ's power is made perfect in my weakness. I know that He is the true healer; God can take away all of my pain. Whether that pain be related to Endometriosis or my joints.
In the meantime, I have been encouraged to get blood work done to test for sure what my joint pain is caused from. Blood work is something that I have to stay up on for my other issue as well. I get so frustrated...even writing about this makes me angry. Why do I feel like I have bad genes? It's bad enough that I have Endometriosis to begin with...but the idea of possibly developing RH at the same time? Really God? Really??
What is He trying to teach me? What am I supposed to learn through this? I'm supposed to be the one who helps people deal with this someday? Now I feel like I need occupational therapy!
If anyone is reading this, and this is more than just me venting about things; I ask for your prayers. For both of us. Luke is doing so good at encouraging me and trying to help me feel better as well as being a spiritual support. However, I know it weighs on him as well.
In the meantime, I'm told to take it easy and to stop training for my 5K... :(
Praying for you!!
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