Faithfulness

I feel like I finally have time to sit and blog...although not much exciting happened this week.
Luke and I have been crazy busy with school and work - and I don't foresee that ending until we are both done with school.

So instead of boring you with the reality of my life right now with the daily details, I decided I would blog about God's faithfulness this week.

The week has been physically, emotionally and spiritually draining.  I think the majority of it had to do with the fact that I was not feeling well in the beginning of the week and not sleeping.  No sleep always equates to more stress.  I have been spiritually frustrated this week; asking God to take the pain away, to allow sleep and calm my nerves.  All these things I know God is capable of doing, however, I did not feel any relief or peace for that matter.  It was not until Tuesday night did I recognize what God was doing...

He was teaching me a lesson (I feel like I could sometimes live without the weekly lessons from God as they always cause stress in the beginning).  Anyway - a verse popped into my head on the way home from the doctor's on Tuesday; it was the verse about how Jesus knows our pain, everything we feel He has felt too.  So I replied, "Ok Jesus, you feel my pain.  You know how this is affecting me emotionally, physically, with school, work, etc.  I also know you're capable of taking it away.  I know you will heal me.  Please help me to be patient with Your will."

Then I really, truly had to believe that!  It's hard - but I'm dealing with it.  God also provided peace for me Tuesday night from my wonderful neighbor Cindy.  Moving from stable spiritual supporters and being thrown into the middle of the "big city" as my mother-in-law calls it, God has provided a friend in Christ right next door.  She is such a blessing and encouragement.  While Luke is a wonderful support and encourager, sometimes us girls just need our girls. ;)

Come Wednesday - it was not easier, but God was still faithful.  I had to hand over my struggles back over to God and He took them and said, "I will make this so much easier for you - but you have to have faith."  I was feeling so overwhelmed and as if I didn't know if I was the right fit for my program and everything else I am trying to accomplish.  - Wait, it gets better...

This morning; I was getting ready to leave for class and I felt this tug on my heart that sounded like this, "Please, give me five minutes this morning.  I have wonderful news for you. Five minutes before you leave, please."  So I went back into the bedroom, grabbed my devotional and opened it up for today and started reading scripture;

"For we have become fellows with Christ and share in all He has for us, if only we hold our first newborn confidence and original assured expectation firm and unshaken to the end." Hebrews 3:14

Well, I don't know how He could make it any clearer.  "Really God? Okay, I will obey and finish what I have started, what You have blessed me with in ability and opportunity.  I will carry out these next two years to glorify You so that I may glorify You in the years to come in this profession You have called me to."

I am so thankful I listened to God this morning and read that devotional.  I needed it to have successful day and stress free day.  I know I can always go back to this as well when things get hard.  He has begun a good work in me to glorify Him.  There is now NO doubt that this is His will for my life right now. 

He didn't promise us it would be easy, but He did promise us He would carry our burdens and see us through if we allow Him to.

I have found my peace I've been searching for this week. :)