Beginnings

After mulling over the idea of a title change, I decided to look up definitions of "beginning."  This is what I found:

1. an act or circumstance of entering upon an action or state

2. the point of time or space at which anything begins

3. the first part:

4. Often, beginnings. the initial stage or part of anything

5. origin; source; first cause

 

When I originally named this blog, it was the beginning of a new chapter in my life.  I was married and for the first time, moved out of the town I grew up in my whole life.  I thought "Just the Beginning" was an appropriate title, because it was the beginning of a new part of my life.  After having read the definitions that popped up for "beginning," I've realized that our lives are constantly beginning again.  As humans, we innately set out with a desire to embark on new journeys, move forward toward goals and dreams.  We change, we grow, we begin...over and over again. 

 

With that being said, I think I've decided that I like the word "beginning."  It means something new, it means change, it represents the start of something.  Sometimes we choose not-so-smart beginnings, and sometimes we choose risky or scary beginnings.  Either way, we are constantly beginning.  The first two words "Just the" I am not too fond of, as it is not JUST a beginning. It's A beginning!  So I think I will change the title, but you can bet "beginning" will still be apart of it.

 

Luke and I just began a new chapter in our life.  It was scary at first, but it's for the best.  We chose to have faith in this new beginning in our life and to go with it. 

 

If we were not beginning, we would not be moving.  A title like, "Stagnant" would not be very appealing, nor would our life. 

HELP! Title Change Advice

After reviewing my blog, I've realized that "Just the Beginning" may not be an appropriate title for this blog anymore.

 Maybe  ???? Not sure...

Any thoughts and/or comments on the possiblity of changing (or keeping) the title?

Thanks!

PS - Happy Tuesday!

The Beginning of a New Journey

Since my last blog, one could say that I was quite nervous about the idea of Luke going to school in Ohio.  Today, I find myself not only enjoying my (way over due!!) two weeks off, but thinking about Luke as he starts his first day of classes in T minus 13 minutes....in Ohio.
*University of Findlay - PA Program

Yesterday, him and I packed up the cars and drove down and got him settled in his new home.  Leaving him was much harder than I thought it would be.  For those of you who know me, know that I am not an emotional person.  But leaving my husband 3.5 hours away was difficult.  Very difficult.  Let's just say that if there was a "dislike" button for the situation, I would have "disliked" it multiple times! 

It was, however, all made better in Toledo when I got to stop and have coffee with my best friend at Tim Hortons.  Coffee and Emily have a way of making life better. :)

I am so incredibly proud of him!  I know he is going to do great in his program.  It's a sacrifice right now, but we're moving forward and closer to our dream.

Please keep us in your prayers as we embark on this journey together (and apart). 

I Wanna Be Anywhere But Here

So let us pretend that all the details have been figured out.Let us pretend that while I sit in this McDonald's, attempting to write my paper, that I'm not failing horribly at the task.
Let's pretend for 5 minutes that my life is exactly what it was a week ago:
- Celebratory (close to the end of this class)
- Simple
- Secure (for the most part)

I was so excited a week ago to think about all the good things that were going for us.  I had this sense of "We got this!"  It was great!

Shame on me for believing such a feeling could last.

Friday, Luke received a call from the PA program down at University of Findlay in Ohio.
....That is where I am today; Findlay, Ohio. CRAP!

I'm frustrated, scared, nervous, exhausted and emotionally; a wreck!
We now find ourselves attempting the impossible.  Or at the very least; the most difficult of tasks.
Going from two incomes (Luke's far more significant than mine) and one in grad school to partial of an income (my minimal part time job) and TWO in grad school. 

"Are you guys crazy!" - you may ask? Maybe.
"Are you high!?" - you say?  No - but I wish I was to help keep my anxiety at bay.

So that's it. That's the big news I've been holding out on. 
I'm sitting down at a McDonalds in this town trying to focus on this paper.  Unfortunately, all I can focus on is how this is going to work.  I've been working all morning with Financial Aid and everybody is telling us to just "Do It" (You would think this was a hell of a Nike ad - but it's not, unfortunately, and we are not collecting any royalties from this.)  But I guess we're doing this, we're attempting to make this work.

Now that I have that all out and the local MickeyD's has slowed down from a loud, annoying "buzz" to a mild "humming" of people; hopefully this second round of attempting this paper will be successful.

Thanks for reading my rants and rambles. You are my outlet.

The Choice

Ever been jolted awake with an option?  I'm not talking about the "What would you like to drink?" or "What do you want to do tonight?" kind of option.  I'm speaking of the kind of option that can quite literally, turn your life upside down.

I've never experienced a situaiton where I felt like I was living in a dream world until this weekend; until we were given the choice.  My heart wanted to be happy and excited, my head wanted to be realistic. The combination of them both felt surreal.

Now, to some, it may not be that big of a deal, but to Luke and I it is.

I'm going to take this time right now to build the suspense. 
Just keep in mind; our life is going to drastically change in the next 2 weeks. However, I am not going to give details to everyone until the details have been figured completley out.

So stay tuned....